sodden paths

One day you will weep for me
You will search for me in those Sodden paths where I lurked for you
You will implore on your knees,in front of the altar,
where I had lit up a thousand candles for you
You will yearn for the rain in which I got soaked, in your way
You will ache for those days in which, I was obsessed with you
You will stray in those heaps where I wandered for u like a nomad
You will beg to the heavens for my hug,like I craved for your smile

....BUT YOU WILL NOT FIND ME !!!

You will not find me anymore In your paths,
longing to see your face to soothe my aggravated soul

You will not spot me in that church
Where my heart got burnt along with those candles

You will not see me in that garden again
Where the thorns pricked into ma heart while collecting petals for you

""You are going to get drenched in the rain of desire""

"NO RAIN CAN PUT OFF THE FLAME INSIDE YOUR HEART"

All those drops had deceived me once,

"""NO!! always"""!!

All I wanted to breathe, was your kiss
All I wanted to survive was your sympathy

I’m no more ardent to love you
I know you will come back
But this heart is already broken into pieces

It can never beat for anyone.
"anymore"

Each piece of ma sliced heart is still burning

Cursing the inability to forget your name.

""Your mourning will be the REQUIEM
For ma silent love which had never been pampered by you"".

wind

when you look at me,i become disturbed
when you come near to me, i become vexed
when you touch me, i become weak
when you keep your head on my shoulder,i "console" myself

YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I FEEL FOR YOU !!!

you say you can understand me But you never know,
all i have for you is

"a heart full of love"


all i know is i can never make you mine.
that eats me from inside

when you look at me..all i want to do is
"to touch your LIPS"
when you come close to me..all i want to do is
"to hold you close to my SOUL"
when you touch me.. all i want to do is
"to forget this WORLD"
when you keep your head on my shoulder..all i want to do is
"to kiss your FOREHEAD"

this WIND plays with your HAIR
your HAIR plays with my EMOTIONS

you never know
"HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU"

WHEN I REALISE I CAN NEVER MAKE YOU MINE

"I BECOME INFERIOR"

everytime i say to myself

"SHOULDNT HAVE MET HER"...

angel

i can feel you in this wind
i can touch you in this dew drop
i can see you sleeping in the arms of these clouds
i can hear you whispering to the stars
this heart still beats,but im no more alive


"""even shadows are betraying me"""


i wander in this desolate land for your "cuddle"
i stagger in this darkness for your "caress"


you shouldnt haveleft me alone in this thornes
you shouldnt have made me love this life
you shouldnt have taught me to see dreams
you shouldnt have vanished after giving me hope


"my abhorrence to the HEAVENS will never end"
for they have grabbed my angel from me

"my vengeance to the ANGELS is incessant"
for they have stolen my heaven from me

tears

"mom"


i was the only kid who didn't cry that day
i could see the pride in your eyes,i sat on the first bench,
no!! on the first desk
for dad had told me to be in-front,
i didn't know which was the bench and which was the desk
my first day in school..all others were crying
i smiled at both of you, holding the bag close to my heart,,
you never realized the pounding of my heart when i saw you waving your hand..
""""i didn't cry mom""""""
my heart became heavy as you vanished in the crowd..all other parents were waiting to console their kids..but u needn't had to wait,coz your son was smiling..
i became alone mom,,but i had hidden my tears


"dad"


it was raining when you were returning from my college
that was my first college away from home,
when you hugged me,i could feel your tears on my shoulder
i was all alone in that crowd dad!!
my first day in that new place,,you came with me..
and you were about to leave..ill be alone dad.
i saw a million dreams behind your tears
i know you have noticed my tears,,even though i was drenched
but i tried to hide it from you dad.
if my eyes would have become wet,
i would not have seen those dreams in your eyes


"sister"


that Sunday, i searched for you every where in the church after the service.
my small heart started beating fast..i lost the hands to clutch.
all i could see were strange faces gaping at me,,my soul was shivering
you were my world and i was like some one who lost the world.
the moment you came, you saw the smiling face of your younger brother
you never knew what i felt inside,i had hidden my tears



"first love"


i never wanted to make you mine
i never wanted you to love me back
i never wanted you to spend time with me
all i wanted was a "SMILE" from you
you never saw my tears..but i always had it



"broken friendships"


i never considered you as my friends
you were my "BROTHERS"
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAVE I DONE
for you to hate me
i was shattered when i realized that the only feeling that
you all have for me is hatred..when i had only love for you
you know the reasons are your creations only
but i never cried for our relations..my tears were hidden..



"soul-mate"



you came to my world,,i was alone
you changed everything..i had warned you..you never listened
you had shown me a million dreams..you had given me a million promises
you insisted me to see dreams,,and when you left me all alone..all i had with me were those dreams,,you never stood with me when i had tears,,
but i badly needed a shoulder.



"tears"


the only reality...
you were always with me..
sometimes in eyes and always in heart....