tears

"mom"


i was the only kid who didn't cry that day
i could see the pride in your eyes,i sat on the first bench,
no!! on the first desk
for dad had told me to be in-front,
i didn't know which was the bench and which was the desk
my first day in school..all others were crying
i smiled at both of you, holding the bag close to my heart,,
you never realized the pounding of my heart when i saw you waving your hand..
""""i didn't cry mom""""""
my heart became heavy as you vanished in the crowd..all other parents were waiting to console their kids..but u needn't had to wait,coz your son was smiling..
i became alone mom,,but i had hidden my tears


"dad"


it was raining when you were returning from my college
that was my first college away from home,
when you hugged me,i could feel your tears on my shoulder
i was all alone in that crowd dad!!
my first day in that new place,,you came with me..
and you were about to leave..ill be alone dad.
i saw a million dreams behind your tears
i know you have noticed my tears,,even though i was drenched
but i tried to hide it from you dad.
if my eyes would have become wet,
i would not have seen those dreams in your eyes


"sister"


that Sunday, i searched for you every where in the church after the service.
my small heart started beating fast..i lost the hands to clutch.
all i could see were strange faces gaping at me,,my soul was shivering
you were my world and i was like some one who lost the world.
the moment you came, you saw the smiling face of your younger brother
you never knew what i felt inside,i had hidden my tears



"first love"


i never wanted to make you mine
i never wanted you to love me back
i never wanted you to spend time with me
all i wanted was a "SMILE" from you
you never saw my tears..but i always had it



"broken friendships"


i never considered you as my friends
you were my "BROTHERS"
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAVE I DONE
for you to hate me
i was shattered when i realized that the only feeling that
you all have for me is hatred..when i had only love for you
you know the reasons are your creations only
but i never cried for our relations..my tears were hidden..



"soul-mate"



you came to my world,,i was alone
you changed everything..i had warned you..you never listened
you had shown me a million dreams..you had given me a million promises
you insisted me to see dreams,,and when you left me all alone..all i had with me were those dreams,,you never stood with me when i had tears,,
but i badly needed a shoulder.



"tears"


the only reality...
you were always with me..
sometimes in eyes and always in heart....